Monday, 30 November 2015

Southend Soul

Southend in our sphere. An alleged fresh start. Supposed to be. Dougie, Neil and I. My two flatmates; a dolorous yin and yang. Dougie Deane; daydream. Blue eyes full of wondrous hope, safe and bounded by the belief that Daft Punk were real robots. Possibly the sweetest soul I've ever known and perhaps my best friend in the whole wide world. And Neil. Poor, neurotic, narcissistic Neil; life's biggest pessimist. Our luckless life in London has been left behind. Neil said we were to die a desolate death in Northolt, but now, by the salty sea and the biting breeze, we may meet our calling in the choppy waters that stretch as far as the crazed eye can capture. Full of sunshine, that one. 







Night we moved here we scrawled a letter each and stuffed it into a glazed green beer bottle, throwing it out to the dazzling sea. The sun shimmered, crashing tidal waves of broken glass. Everyone and anyone who had ever hurt us was bled to black ink. Doug didn't write very much. Neil and I could hardly stuff our letters into the bottle, so fuelled by bitterness and resentment were we. Our Coldplay tickets slashed, the final throttle to the bottle. Chris Martin had let us down, it was lethal; Gwyneth Paltrow. Lethal, Neil said. Love was lethal and now our only ally would be a mere memory. Worse than the hose pipe ban, Neil said. A terminally single trio and Coldplay's rush of blood wouldn't gush, nor would it reason to rhyme. Their dispirit was drowned and doused in doubt, in lie and sin. 



Johnny, there he was. Ray Bans and grey marl and Converse and God, he'd grown up. He was? 31. 
'Don't hit on me. I'm having an off day,' his trademark twinkle terminated the grey haze of hell that hung over his face. She wanted to tell him it was all going to be okay, that Shea was going to wake and BOOM happy ever fucking after. But they both had been there that night. Fairytale was fanatical.



Remember the day you drove us here Johnny Rotten? Chancing a wink at me as the lights flashed from amber to emerald. Smirking at the palm trees aligning Southend's stonewall; England's paradisal wish to California. The soured summer air was raw against my face, freshly fortuitous. We walked the pier, catching glimpse gaps of the sea beneath the floor; a grey marbled mass of froth. We simmered down to drink in the sea, the boats bobbing out in the harbour, the coast being spun from grey gold to burnt orange. And for a moment, for just a moment, we were okay. If only for a moment.




18 comments:

  1. Wow, this was wonderfully stunning to read! I love everything about your writing style, it reads as if you've already written tons of books and you are super accomplished - just gorgeous! I'm always excited to read anything you've written because I know it will be magical and this was! You are amazing! <3 xxx

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  2. Another wonderful read Soph! So magical and well-written, I could feel the cool sea breeze in my hair while reading this :) So happy that you're posting more of your stories! :) Love the images in this post, too! :)

    Paula
    Thirteen Thoughts

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  3. WOW. Is it weird to say that I read this in my head in Patricia Arquette's voice?! So good Sophie, really really enjoyed it! J xxx

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  4. Ah just beautiful Sophie! I'm totally in awe of the way you put words together. I love the atmospheric pictures too! x

    Kate Louise Blogs

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  5. I'm so glad you've been sharing your writing on here Sophie because you are SO talented! This was beautiful x

    Josie | Sick Chick Chic

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  6. OH you. Gosh. Please write a book. I'll buy it. You have such an incredible way with words!

    Tara x

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  7. This was BRILLIANT. Instant follow; any blog with writing substance is a blog I'd love to read. This was wonderfully written. Plus, any one with a penchant for alliteration is an instant friend! I cannot wait to read more, Sophie.


    May | THE MAYDEN

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  8. Wow I love your thought ! And the pictures looks so gorgeous :)


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  9. If I can only write like you. You sure have a way with words, Sophie. Great piece and these images are so peaceful. Have a good day!

    missymayification.blogspot.co.uk

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  10. I LOVED reading this, sweetie. Sooooo inspiring! Images go perfectly with the thoughts behind them. Can't wait for more posts, babe! P.S. Love the new layout hon!
    xox Nadia
    http://mielandmint.blogspot.co.uk/

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  11. This was a wonderful read Sophie, I love how you share pieces of your work. The photos are equally lovely too - such moody lighting! :)

    Gabrielle | A Glass Of Ice
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  12. A beautiful read as always Sophie, I never fail to get engulfed by your poetic way with words. You paint such a perfect picture, I cannot ever get enough of those deliciously decadent descriptive paragraphs, I want to be lost in your writing and your photos myself. <3

    P.s. Also so v. glad of your reassuring me of your Bieber fondness:') Makes me feel totally okay about requesting 'what do you mean' on my later evening out..

    //teandtwosugars.blogspot.com xx

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  13. Great post and photos! Love it!
    leavingericafootprints.blogspot.com

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  14. **insert a million oh-my-gosh emojis** Sophie your writing draws me in like crazy- its completely mesmerizing and if this were a book, I would still be reading like crazy! The photographs alongside this wonderful short story have an almost movie-like effect; I can totally feel the characters emotions through the reflective sunset shots :) You are seriously talented- at both photography and writing! Keep doing what you're doing lovely!


    Rachel xx
    http://www.thedailyluxe.net

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  15. Sophie, honestly, you're such a great writer, this is simply magical! Please keep sharing your stories here on the blog, because I love reading your work. You're incredibly talented! Also the pictures are stunning, and go so well alongside the story.
    XO IMKE | Pastellics

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  16. This post was lovely, and the pictures accompanying it was amazing! Love!

    Angie x | Chocolate & Lipstick || UK Beauty and Lifestyle Blog

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  17. Oh I just love the way you write Sophie!! It's so beautiful and really draws me in, please write me a book? Haha :) xx

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